Wednesday 11/5/2025 Edition
I decided to make this website for my healing process. Not from a serious traumatic experience or breakup— though I've been through both— but because I need to find myself regardless of my circumstances.
I have spent the last few years of my life devoted to other people. I feel the need to attach so quickly. It looks to others as lovebombing. When I go through breakups I find myself with so much free time its scary to me. this obviously isnt good for me.
I still feel that I need to find myself but I question if I do it for me or them...
we spend so much of our lives trying to wait quicker for the next thing. time is invariable. I dont want to spend my early adult years hoping I can heal enough to find a partner to devote myself to, and in just enough time. This mindset is new to me and feels almost wrong. I've always felt previously that my purpose was a partner. That is the true "wrong" mindset. if you take anything from what I'm writing just let it be that you can only ever count on yourself. Even still you can only count on yourself if you make that effort for yourself. Many people find it arrogant and selfish when people are really just confident and love themselves. their is nothing wrong with self love, but there is with pride and arrogance.
